kissing in the chaos of the afternoon the earth moves without a second thought the coastline is a tidal wave of gratitude and well being without the tidal wave you re here even when you re not and i m so right with the tides you ll have to bury me in a shallow grave when you need your heart you ll barely have to dig you ve always known we don t have to die alone this hallucination of a year has brought our beloved author to his knees at press time he was still breathing he seems so right with the tides

here in the dark in the cold in the wind rain fire i could die when you lost yourseld out out here in the night in your eyes there s a desperation i could die when you lost yourself sad and alone and in love hide me come find me don t wait for help forever flies by me here are you scared are you lost in a wasted haven i could not but i lost myself out out here on your skin in your touch when you scream my name i know i could lie but i lost myself sad and alone and in love holding on the flames get faster let it burn our love disaster better on my own we re better off alone holding on the flames get faster let it burn our love disaster better on my own we re better off we re better off hide me come find me don t wait for help forever flies by me when we re here in the dark in the cold in the wind rain fire i could not but i lost myself sad and alone and in love

so heres my leaving notice were all sick with our own intentions but were spoon fed and without directions the ambition is gone and were all moving on too soon brain washed to fit in with what we dont want because its too much to try complain all the while believe in the lie because youre selling yourself short blind to your way out you didnt even notice incapable and now well i still think were all to blame cause were all the same and you know this so heres my leaving notice but the vices in your head are designed in your own bed and reflected in the window pane you tried to hide behind again so blame it on all of the things that contradict and cut your means and justify a way to be the way you are continually so heres my leaving notice blind to your way out you didnt even notice incapable and now well i still think were all to blame cause were all the same and you know this so heres my leaving notice were all sick with our own intentions but were spoon fed and without directions the ambition is gone and were all moving on too soon were moving on and out again we traded time for could have been so write it off and call it hopeless im handing in my leaving notice were moving on and out again we traded time for could have been so write it off and call it hopeless im handing in my leaving notice were moving on and out again we traded time for could have been so write it off and call it hopeless im handing in my leaving notice were spoon fed were brain dead

walk these lonely streets without a home dear mary where s the kids when did they leave where did they go feel the morning breeze after all these years been so far away in a prison cell i no longer wanna feel the darkness in my soul forever forever you will know forever and ever well you will know here i sit again lost at your place i brought the flowers that i know you like for you my dear all the memories after all these years couldn t find a way never been the same i no longer wanna feel the darkness in my soul forever forever you will know forever and ever well you will know forever forever you will know forever and ever well you will know i ll find peace alongside the road and make believe there s a sign for us all the innocence that i know i behold will set my spirit free so long forever forever you will know forever and ever you will know forever forever you will know forever and ever well you will know that i love you

tired of all the promises and never coming through it s easy to pretend until they turn their back on you and all the ones that bring you down their colors weren t that true and life s become a battle that you swore you d never lose it don t matter what went wrong this time don t matter what went right we re always searching for the reason why and the longest road to find it will take many years to climb don t wait here for that moment to arrive leave them all behind yeah i m tired of all the promises and never coming through it s easy to pretend until they turn their back on you yeah and all the ones that bring you down their colors weren t that true when you lose your confidence your mind plays tricks on you it don t matter what went wrong this time don t matter what went right we re always searching for the reason why and the longest road to find it will take many years to climb we keep on getting stuck here all the time we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train the words they say couldn t stop us if they tried we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train i know some day everything is gonna fall in line i ve been struck down and defeated every step along the way become your own worst enemy when nothing seems to change you have to fail a thousand times before you get it straight so catch me if you can cause i ain t leaving this to fate it don t matter what went wrong this time don t matter what went right we re always searching for the reason why and the longest road to find it will take many years to climb we keep on getting stuck here all the time we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train the words they say couldn t stop us if they tried we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train i know some day everything is gonna fall in line tired of all the promises and never coming through stop waiting for that moment to arrive we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train the words they say couldn t stop us if they tried we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train i know some day everything is gonna fall in line we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna leave them all behind we re gonna catch that train i know some day everything is gonna fall in line

oh my golden state state of mind faded to gray and as i ran away i knew what to say my rabid need for confidence has left me frothing at the mouth so i spat out someone help me and felt sorry for myself but i ll just go and watch the cars pass by my window i think i m apathetic or just flat out pathetic you would know when i get cold i ll think of home say what you want say what you need my head is a cave where i ve been digging graves for you and me oh my back and forth coming thoughts shook the words right through my teeth where i turned black and blue looking at you i just keep thinking that i m golden that this will make sense when i m old but each and every step i take leads me further from the door when i get cold i ll think of home say what you want say what you need my head is a cave where i ve been digging graves for you and me oh i ve got the west coast blues each and every day i just think of you startled by my slight of hand and how it never fails to come back in the end i know i ll end up somewhere in between here and my home and all i ever hear from you is will it be soon say what you want say what you need my head is a cave where i ve been digging graves for you and me say what you want say what you need my head is a cave where i ve been digging graves for you and me

impersonate yourself it looks all wrong the medic is ascending to another realm you dance around your worth you count it out the fabric tears completely and disappears dry your eyes tear them open peel the lids back on everyone and watch it go still echoing into the space we left between and i remember when you couldn t stand holding onto me so long i dry off all the ink in the bright lights the marquee is defective it never shines impersonate yourself it looks alright the mirror cracks completely in another room from where i am there s a different view you can compare the reflection it looks all wrong from a higher point it never shines when you want it dry your eyes tear them open peel the lids back on everyone and watch it go still echoing into the space we left between and i remember when you couldn t stand holding onto me so long and watch it go still echoing into the space we left between and i remember when you couldn t stand holding onto me so long impersonate yourself it looks all wrong the medic is ascending to another realm

i got a feeling that i can t let go all the parasites i can t get rid of i know using bleach ll work i ll go real slow just pour a bit out on the grout so white it ll glow before i knew i d spend a day hands and knees all bleeding on the floor in the same way everyone who see me thinks that i m insane but they re the kind who just distract me from the game i play and i won t stop living til i m dead observation and complaining make me fucked up in the head oh you know they re my hours and they re not yours to spend my condition keeps you up at night just a minute if you can t wait turn out the light got some work to do not done til it s right by a standard that i set that most consider too high i ve a question you can t answer too explain what makes your method better what makes me a fool everyone who see me thinks that i m insane i guess i just expect from you the same and i won t stop living til i m dead observation and complaining make me fucked up in the head oh you know they re my hours and they re not yours to spend there s an image in our head that we need made real and we ll clean pick skin til we can t quite feel the burned raw wounds from the cleaning we ve done acid tends to fucking do that when it s poured on someone excellence is best gained through your toil and pain not a whole lot anyone can say about it anyways clean and new s the mean and you are seen as who s to blame i got a feeling i m already in hell all the parasites are under my skin i can tell using bleach ll work i ll go real slow just pour a bit til they crawl out white as the snow before i knew i d spend a day on hands and knees all bleeding on the floor in the same way everyone who sees it knows that i m insane and i apologize i m too distracted by the game i play there s an image in our head that we need made real and we ll clean pick skin til we can t quite feel the burned raw wounds from the cleaning we ve done acid tends to fucking do that when it s poured on someone excellence is best gained through your toil and pain not a whole lot anyone can say about it anyway clean and new s the mean and you are seen as who s to blame and i won t stop living til i m dead observation and complaining make me fucked up in the head oh you know they re my hours and they re not yours to spend

keep it safe stop watch is it cold have i been dishonest or has has the weather become the excuse for what i did evening eyes visionless so much more than they hoped for search along the dead river needle in the hay hounds you out nothing you can fall back on in the way it felt i can see it was real i won t be the only one carrying on is it gone is it cold to the touch has it been forgotten or has has the autumn sun been the ghost of what i want search along the dead river needle in the hay hounds you out nothing you can fall back on in the way it felt i can see it was real i won t be the only one carrying on no one could have known all of our pockets had holes sober up and you can see more than what you wanted time won t lead you anywhere move forward into it i can see the difference what are you waiting for time won t lead you anywhere move forward into it i can see the difference what are you waiting for in the way it felt i can see it was real i won t be the only one carrying all the blame no one could have known all of our pockets had holes sober up and you can see more than what you wanted

i ve been blessed with shit luck there are some things that ll never change i ve been strung out and fed up with the strain i get a little more nervous every day i just wanna be somethin never thought i d be nothin at all and it feels like i can t win i m growin up and i m givin in and it s startin to hurt and it feels like i can t win i couldn t wait to be alone again and i m getting worse you say i never try but you know i do i couldn t live with my 9 to 5 and i ll regret what i did to you my whole life no matter what i do i can never get anything right i just wanna be somethin never thought i d be nothin at all and it feels like i can t win i m growin up and i m givin in and it s startin to hurt and it feels like i can t win i couldn t wait to be alone again and i m getting worse i might die of this boredom if you don t kill me first chalk it up to apathy i had every chance i had every opportunity that i could want and i ruined em all i had every chance never thought i d be nothin at all and it feels like i can t win i m growin up and i m givin in and it s startin to hurt and it feels like i can t win i couldn t wait to be alone again and i m getting worse i might die of this boredom if you don t kill me first1

when you lie your line of sight i feel is compromised but i i feel alright i feel alive but i feel denied and i m holding on to every still frame still in sight and i ll hold on i ll hold on all the world i feel is ours i ll never let you reminisce of me in memory where all the fear will start to fall if ever you could live in this with me this memory and i m in a place and time and i m carving flowers into glass on every side fall in the light let your life decide and light a fire in the wind and turn back time and i ll hold on i ll hold on all the world i feel is ours i ll never let you reminisce of me in memory where all the fear will start to fall if ever you could live in this with me this memory and where do i begin to fall apart and where do i begin to heal my heart tear apart tear apart and where do i begin to heal my heart all the world i feel is ours i ll never let you reminisce of me in memory where all the fear will start to fall if ever you could live in this with me this memory

when i m with you feels like fire flies are lighting up the scary dark sky that followed me thru the sickest fucking part of my whole life a couple years back i couldn t see straight the whats and whens were erasing life as i knew was being replaced by abnormal agony but it s all good now cuz i found you hiding in a place where we both felt we were safe drinking the problems away understanding was overwhelming and you embraced it with burgers and ever since then i knew that i was where i always want to be happy and sweet is how you make me feel ruling out the stress of sad songs that i made for the first time lili i really hope is cool i wrote your name down in a song lili clearly i think it s been a while have i felt like this before

fly but don t look down tonight an angel warping minds away in time eyes so dark and oversized like mine did you get enough did you hurt yourself did you call it off did your head go soft did you runaway runaway did you get enough did you break your skull did you throw your stones did you find your bones did you runaway runaway i ve been wasting all my time embracing my demise under the skies did you get enough did you hurt yourself did you call it off did your head go soft did you runaway runaway did you get enough did you break your skull did you throw your stones did you find your bones did you runaway runaway little sister go away nothing left inside today little blisters on my face nothing left to see today little ripples in the waves come and sink another day condescending on myself i don t wanna go i would do anything if angels were calling me did you get enough did you hurt yourself did you call it off did your head go soft did you runaway runaway did you get enough did you break your skull did you throw your stones did you find your bones did you runaway runaway

we grew up together you were my rock you were my stone when i was lost i was never alone together forever one with our hearts the words take me away when that beat starts you are my cure whoa you were my rock you were my stone whoa you were my rock you were my stone i learned how to love and how to dance always take a chance you changed the game this world will never be the same together forever one with our hearts the words take me away when that beat starts you are my cure now we gotta keep on trying even though our heroes are dying it s up to us now to make this fire never burn out whoa you were my rock you were my stone whoa you were my rock you were my stone whoa you were my rock you were my stone when the music played i was never alone we gotta keep on trying even though our heroes are dying it s up to us now it s up to us now we gotta keep on trying even though our heroes are dying it s up to us now it s up to us now whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa

hey c mon oh all you soft girls trying to be hard girls you know that nothing changes just be yourself never got a lot of empathy wearing my insides here on the outside could ve got a little temporary relief peeling the broadside getting the thrill but it was just a distraction to keep me up when i wasn t awake oh all you soft girls trying to be hard girls you know that nothing changes just be yourself following the path that i should baby legacy leaving was completely deceiving and i d never gotten where i wanted to be i didn t notice it was all just a show i understand the attraction of wearing armour all the time oh all you soft girls trying to be hard girls you know that nothing changes cuz your hair s in your face and all you good boys trying to be bad boys you know that nothing changes just be yourself hey turn it up hey you can do it c mon let s go oh all you soft girls trying to be hard girls you know that nothing changes cuz your hair s in your face and all you good boys trying to be bad boys you know that nothing changes just be yourself hey

yeah you were better when you were dreaming when you were fighting off the lies and now i know what you were feeling and i can see behind your eyes everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark well now were kicking and were screaming and now were living with a lie oh is that the legacy youre leaving and all i wanna know is why why everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark oh the cool of your whisper a wave to my heart as the end of the storm takes us back to the start where youll be thunder and ill be the rain and tonight we can shake like an old hurricane is there rest for the weary these fists and these tongues these knuckles these nails these wrists and these lungs lover stir up the pool lead me down to the deep where the ocean burns white and the water it speaks everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark everything feels like a tragedy everything feels like a tragedy in the dark

turn the pages back so i can sit and think about this life am i gonna be somebody will the life i live have some meaning all i know is that since i was a child my imagination it ran wild surrounded by all this mystery i was going to be the one to find the meaning and they say all the dreams that you made up won t make you ever add up to much i didn t build a dream to leave it i m far too young to live with regret i will find my way out all by myself and i don t need your saving woah oh oh woah oh oh i ll make mistakes i ll find my way oh oh oh turn the clocks back to a time when all these questions in my mind led me to a pen and paper fast forward to eight years later now it s all that guides me i see this is my true calling and i ll do it my way change the world with every note i sing and they say all the dreams that you made up won t make you ever add up to much i didn t build a dream to leave it i m far too young to live with regret i will find my way out all by myself and i don t need your saving woah oh oh woah oh oh i ll make mistakes i ll find my way oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh cause when it s over there s no rewind so live it up don t give it up now the only thing we re losing is our time so live it up don t give it up now i will find my way out all by myself i will find my way out all by myself and i will find my way out all by myself and i don t need your saving woah oh oh woah oh oh i ll make mistakes i ll find my way

stay out of my shack can t you see i m busy i got a lot to tackle i wanna fill up my deep freezer for ya my line it ain t been taut in a long long while but this is the spot where i carve out a castle i m a warrior nightcrawlin and the way she goes been holding me holding me down low there s a chill in my bones when the moon don t shine it s getting heavier the ranger he roams and whines like i m rolling in confetti the destroyer i don t need science don t wanna sift through a mountain for diamonds it s all a distraction from exploring ya nightcrawlin and the way she goes been holding me holding me down low shadow on my shoulder nightly this could be a working holiday you don t say a word you re dreaming of something for our hands to do while we wait

i m reaching out for you but the weights push me down i m waiting for the sun that goes round round round round i m living in this hell with a brass in my hand and i won t be the one and i won t be the one yeah i won t be the one that will drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown i never felt so low as i did the night before i never felt so low with my feet still on the ground my blood sweat and tears forced me to war i can t select this date the crowd won t come around i m reaching out for you but the weights push me down i m waiting for the sun that goes round round round round i m living in this hell with a brass in my hand and i won t be the one and i won t be the one yeah i won t be the one that will drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown i never felt so low as i looked you in the eye i never felt so low as i learned to lie my blood sweat and tears forced me to war i can t select this date the crowd won t come around i m reaching out for you but the weights push me down i m waiting for the sun that goes round round round round i m living in this hell with a brass in my hand and i won t be the one and i won t be the one yeah i won t be the one that will drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown drown

bum ba dum ba dum ba dum bum ba dum bum ba dum ba dum ba dum bum ba dum i ve got pimples on my face and grease in my hair and prickly legs go ahead and stare an ass full of stretch marks and little boobs a nice full belly that s filled with food sometimes i m pretty and sometimes i m not so let s take a listen hit me with your best shot i don t exercise and i don t read books so if you want to criticize me go ahead take a look i m not being bossy i m saying how i feel and i m not a bitch for stating what is real sometimes i m girly and sometimes i m not so let s take a listen hit me with your best shot i bleed once a month and sometimes when i shave i get little red bumps i wear short skirts and sometimes long pants and i can dress how i want not looking for a show of hands sometimes i m moody and sometimes i m not sometimes i m lazy and sometimes i m not sometimes i m crazy and sometimes i m not sometimes i m angry and sometimes i m not sometimes i m happy and sometimes i m not i m still gonna be here even after your best shot i m still gonna be here even after your best shot i m still gonna be here even after your best shot because i can be brave and i can be bold no matter what you have to say oh i fall in love with people once a day oh but if you ask me out i m still allowed to say no way4