i m so tired but i can t sleep my mind is full but i can t speak among the dust of the hard to reach i m stuck right here somewhere between side a and side b i could call it compromise or just an intermission some kind of consolation prize for the race i never finished i want to turn these tired gears i want to feel the follow through some kind of equilibrium something to set my watch to i m here somewhere between victory and a white flag caught in this purgatory dream i m stuck but i want to set the record straight i want to retrace my every step if i could just rewind all the tapes then maybe i d find my loose thread call it a compromise or just an intermission some kind of consolation prize so close but never finished i want to turn these tired gears i want to feel the follow through some kind of equilibrium something to set my watch to

hurry hurry up and wait is how the waiting game is played a thousand moving parts keep score inside the watch we can t ignore so let s hurry let s hurry up and wait much too tired to try much too stubborn to quit on an island in between the coasts of hit or miss are we settlers or are we natives of this land only time will tell on which pedestal we were meant to stand so let s hurry let s hurry up and wait so let s hurry let s hurry hurry up and wait every cloud above s full of splattered paint every seed below lies patiently in wait but a watched kettle never boils a watched tree never grows may we have our tea in the forest may we reap all that we sow so let s hurry so let s hurry hurry up hurry up and wait so let s hurry hurry up hurry up hurry up and wait

can i withstand all the pain that dwells within i won t let go for my wounds are far too deep i m on my knees in submission to the pain i ve caused will i give in or can i find the will to breathe again i never thought i d be on my own now bring me peace that shelters me you shed your blood just so i could live again for a time i walked in darkness yet you were there to lead me through heal me take my hand lead me from this place guide my heart i am yours i give myself to you bring us hope give us strength now set us free heal me take my hand lead me from this place guide my heart i am yours i give myself to you

their cries are blown away with the wind how passive can we be before humanity is lost turning our backs on those who need love we must not rest while healing is needed tear down the veil that bars your heart from feeling this dedicate yourself give your soul to compassion with open arms embrace this heart with open eyes behold the truth embrace this life so little time is left we must be relentless in our pursuit of those in torment tear down the veil that bars your heart from feeling this dedicate yourself become the voice of compassion with open arms embrace this heart with open eyes behold the truth embrace this life can you reject yourself can you feel their agony in a world that feeds on disregard heal the broken hearted1

have you read the script could you picture it is it worth the risk everything i love is on the line on these neon signs but i need to know when you looked away was it something that i said was it something that i said well okay okay i need you more than i did before now that the concrete is nearly set here in the second act i m living in repair strange how the heart adapts when its pieces disappear and there on page 28 i m so tired of drying glue i begin my grand attempt at building something new though i tend to write the epiphany more immediately i guess i m trusting that there s such a thing as elegance in dissonance god i m skeptical of pulling scenes was it something that i said was it something that i did please don t get me wrong i still need your help as history repeats itself here in the aftermath i m pulling at the seams strange how the heart adapts in the absence of routine and there on page 29 i find new and make it mine but i can t help casting shadows on all i leave behind maybe i could afford to change a bit even let go of the reigns every torn out page was worth the risk now that the stakes have been raised so here in the final draft i ve given all i have strange how the heart expands in the absence of a plan there s nothing left on the page but i m okay with that for i found my resolution was designed for stronger hands

chances are we are the same against the odds against the grain we lean like gardens toward light but we wait like evening for night don t we chances are we are alike against what better judgement writes we ache like children for love for a purpose worthy of such a noble aim such a noble aim such a noble aim as love chances are we bruise the same a family tree desperate for rain a thirst only deserts know best a hurt so at home in our chests call it stubbornness or bravery to let our branches continue to reach with such a noble aim with such a noble aim with such a noble aim as love every broken branch and loosened leaf that we ve grown to ignore is now a part of something greater than before every nest that rests upon our limbs seeking shelter from the storms is a purpose worth being broken for chances are we are the same against the odds against the grain we lean like gardens toward light we reach with all of our might for such a noble aim as love

i remember the last time i saw your face and i surrendered to the warmth of your embrace this memory s not forgotten until the end of days your shadow still walks with me there s no escape and still i find you in my dreams you ll always be a part of me take me away from my oblivion i m so afraid of what i have become because of me i m on my way into the undertow this memory s not forgotten until the end of days your shadow still walks with me and there is no escape and still i find you in my dreams you ll always be a part of me take me away from your oblivion i m so afraid of what i have become because of me i m on my way into the undertow and at the end of the day i see the light again there will always be a tomorrow

every day you wake ever more aware than you ever were before the smallest sound is ringing in your ears like a grand piano slowly falling down a million stairs but the sounds it makes are the growing pains of repair and it goes on and on it goes on and on til the day you wake up miles away from here where all of a sudden dissonance disappears and like a wrecking ball in reverse every wrong will be made right what was adamant even permanent will have a change of heart and mind in your disbelief you ll clear your eyes as if you re seeing light for the very first time it goes on and on it goes on

generations wait like the river sways for a father s blood for a mother s love though not the promised land nor any perfect plan along our neutral path there was a single lowered branch what was flawless canvas white what was kindness in our eyes is now a blemished masterpiece an astigmatism life but let s cut right to the chase to when the best of us was on display before we tipped the scale from confidence to doubt i would hold you now if only i knew how concentration breaks under frivolous weight if the right words exist may they find our lips let s stay the course and let the tension make us new i don t know if it s virtue i don t know if it s just dumb luck would it matter if it was what if we welcomed change in or opened up just enough to let it begin the doors will open wide for you it was said just like it was the truth if we walk right through

i know you get bored but fear the sudden changing of the current i know you feel sore but always hold so tightly to your burdens did i lose your trust did i ever have it to begin it s not a rush if my wheels forever spin let start again i know you like to talk but never can you find the time to listen what happens to the work i did if no one ever finds the good in it did i lose your trust did i ever have it to begin it s not a rush if my wheels forever spin let start again

hold me for a minute i m just that far away from being considered clinically insane i need your attention affection is my way out of the danger zone i feel no lightness days like this are priceless given myself licence to indulge in all my vices woah don t go withdrawal is my soul weakness i m cold smoke draws smoke blows from my nose and keeps me warm i know where i m going i ve seen limbo before straitjacket put on my straitjacket i m on a different planet let it go don t panic i m fine can t hack it my mind is at it again i m manic i m manic straitjacket put on my straitjacket i m on a different planet let it go don t panic i m fine can t hack it my mind is at it again i m manic i m manic split right down the middle and half of me is fine my mind is a riddle typical gemini star signs are my excuse to hide this type of self abuse i feel no lightness days like this are priceless given myself licence to indulge in all my vices please don t mind me i m on borrowed time it s space i need to validate my life i wanna roll with the punches go rogue programming change no i don t want it wanna break out no i put my straitjacket on and go home i don t wanna be here no more i don t wanna go straitjacket put on my straitjacket i m on a different planet let it go don t panic i m fine can t hack it my mind is at it again i m manic i m manic straitjacket put on my straitjacket i m on a different planet let it go don t panic i m fine can t hack it my mind is at it again i m manic i m manic the devil s in my head stirring up a mess taking advantage of my unsteadiness my readiness for death the vans are pulling up fucked if i know why i m hearing cuckoo clocks i m seeing angels in the sky the war is almost started the cavalry s on time fight amongst the foot soldiers but the war is in my mind the war is in my mind straitjacket straitjacket straitjacket don t panic straitjacket straitjacket don t want it

my head is a battle ground conflicting constantly the fire inside i ll burn it out of me heavy heart in my hand her dreams have turned to dust but now theres no way back with all our bridges burned i only blame myself i wish that you could see how bright you made me burn give me your hand and i ll make my way back home your mind is a mystery a puzzle missing a piece the fire inside i ll burn it out of me heavy heart in my hand her dreams have turned to dust but now theres no way back with all our bridges burned i only blame myself i wish that you could see how bright you made me burn give me your hand and i ll make my way back home their minds made up they ll never learn and so i light the fuse and so i watch you burn her dreams have turned to dust but now theres no way back with all our bridges burned i only blame myself i wish that you could see how bright you made me burn give me your hand and i ll make my way back home

hold the bottle to your throat before you breakdown light pierces though the glass before you give up life is simple living the dream holding my cup filled three fingers deep we are the broken here for the moment we wont believe you are helpless praying for you with tongues of fire look at me when i tell you you were loved at your first breath broken promise starts to spread where only thoughts can hurt you you wont let go until youre dead you will never escape this unless you drop the act as if you wanted it life is a blur fearing the fall the past is one thing im not afraid of

inside my prison cell looking back at my life my bones they feel so cold while all the blood is drying out in my veins these walls are closing in my chains they are unseen my heart is covered with scars of betrayal hopeless how can i live when i m already dead scared of being alone can t reach the surface i will drown again i m breathing the last breath i m taking the last step to the edge my days are numbered my time has come i m running out of time in these days i will retrace my memories i m griefing again until the end i cannot hide all the things that drag me closer to the edge there is only one more step to go i am a lifeless shell hours pass like days my flesh is growing old through all the years i ve seen my world disappear trapped in a cage of unrest there s no redeem prisoned and isolated silenced my screams

fear your thoughts is what we are taught fear the gods that are worn and jaded watched by our own minds fear the eyes that we created i cant stop to breathe until the walls are coming down i cant make believe that this is all because whats lost cannot be found i cant stop to sleep until the walls are painted red the only time you ever walked on water was to stand atop my head no real rights thoughts or ideas just safety proof lives for safety proof minds no sin no nonsense time to break free no worries left about your immorality you close your eyes and fear the gods someones watching fear your thoughts

serrated words can cut so deep they slash across my chest and now they pour into my lungs they will never be the same have you enjoyed your selfish games what doesnt kill me makes me numb please dont forgive me im never waking up this wont mean anything to you no use resisting youll never get enough this wont mean anything to you the hole you left i filled with the stones you threw and now its time to sink rats will eat all my flesh and lick my bones clean id rather be here than there with you i need you to say i dont mean anything to you i need you to break i dont mean anything to you i cant breath with you near me cut so deep taking over leave me here dead inside i cant breath knowing youre alive

get up get up get up no hesitation just pull the trigger motherfucker i don t care get up get up get up a revelation i ll take this silver spoon and break it in your ass another victim finally succumb to all the lies another system a final plot for our demise only the dead only the dead will be spared only the dead only the dead will be spared get up get up get up you re not a martyr you played the game and tried to fuck us in the end get up get up get up another barter you sold our weapons to an enemy defence globalization one disorder what s the plan emancipation it is coming to an end only the dead only the dead will be spared only the dead only the dead will be spared they call it revolution looks more like civil war subversively they crawl pride came before the fall we lost all resolution only the dead only the dead will be spared only the dead only the dead will be spared only the dead will be spared

now that the party s started i never wanna resend invitations yeah this is another urgent cause for celebration who wants to get down tonight we ll rock this party till the walls come crashing down so buy another round 21 with no direction living life to the fullest is my intention always on a different route i do the wrong things right alright now we re going back in time always on a different route i do the wrong things right alright now we re going back in time again this is another urgent cause for celebration who wants to get down tonight we ll rock this party til the walls come crashing down so buy another round we re gonna party tonight x2 so buy another round 21 with no direction living life to the fullest is my intention always on a different route i do the wrong things right alright now we re going back in time x2 we re going back in time if you can t hold your party then don t drink the liquor go yeah we ll rock the party till the walls come crashing down so buy another round

we are all comatose we are overfed and under undernourished yearning for something more never starving yet never quite satisfied carnal but without useful flesh or mind i am a walking contradiction that s found consistency consuming everything all without producing sustenance in the parallels we struggle struggle to upkeep there is a better way for us to be set free from all it is we crave there must be more to life than to simply stay alive to simply stay alive we are not the same as i hope to show there is a better way if we just let go we are not we are not the same we are not we are not the same let go in the tension between devouring want or simple need it s clear the only lines between the ones we preserve we are not the same as i hope to show there is a better way if we just let go we are not we are not the same we are not we are not the same let go we are not the same and in the parallels we struggle to upkeep there s a better way for us to be for us to be set free and in the parallels we struggle to upkeep there s a better way for us to be for us to be set free we are not the same as i hope to show there is a better way if we just let go we are not we are not the same we are not we are not the same let go we are not the same

liez liez i can not say no more i can not say too i m not says no more i can not stay forever how could i trust those why did you say that to me how could i trust those maybe it s now or never feels like i m falling to the ground i m standing on the edge can t see the ground i i think i lost my mind i think i lost this time how could i be so blind now it s all gone again now it s all lost forever now it s all gone again we can not tell you never how could i trust those why did you say that to me how could i trust those maybe it s now or never feels like i m falling to the ground i m standing on the edge can t see the ground i i think i lost my mind i think i lost this time how could i be so blind i think i lost my mind i think i lost this time how could i be so blind i i think i lost my mind i think i lost this time how could i be so blind